You wanna know why? Its cause I can never get anything finished! I want to write stories for you people to enjoy, but after writing a couple chapters something in me makes me change my mind and then I delete the pages, start over, get tired of that version delete and get continue until the point that I just delete them and give up and move on to something else!
For those of you who don't know I have ADHD, and I feel like its much worse than what I thought it was. I start a series, I'm happy with it, after sometime I read it and for some reason I'm not happy with it and I'm like "Why would I write that?". It really makes me mad at myself and it makes me feel like I'm letting you guys down! I want to write stories for people to enjoy but I always delete them cause after some time I'm suddenly not happy with what I've done! I'm in this constant loop that I'm afraid I can't get out of! Writing stories and being happy with them, then ADHD kicks in and is like "What the hell is this?". Not only that, but lately I've had the worlds biggest Idea Block. I can't come up with new ideas, I can't come up with new chapters for anything, and I'm in a constant battle trying to determine if I'm happy or not and its really annoying.
I just want to write stories for people, but this stupid ADHD keeps getting in the way. I feel like I'm failing you guys, and it makes me sad but also angry at myself. And it really doesn't help when my stories get so little views and rarely even 1 favourite. I mean- *sigh*. What do you want from me? What am I doing wrong? Cause I work really hard on those, you couldn't imagine the stress I get writing, and I think the reason I get stressed, is cause I'm worried that the same thing is gonna happen, the story gets like 10 views, no favourites not even comments, and I feel like all that time I've put in is wasted.
It upsets me yet makes me angry at the same time. I want people to enjoy my stories but it seems like no one even likes them or pays any attention.
Dangerdude991 and demdragon. These two I cannot thank enough. They're the only people who encourage me on my stories, while I've never met either of them in real life, I still like to consider them friends. I feel like their the only one's who appreciate my stories and encourage me to continue. But, why? Why should I continue to make stories when no one even seems to like them? I don't write these stories just cause I like them, I write them cause I want you to like them. I want people to appreciate all the time and effort I put into these stories and I can never get that! And maybe that's another reason why I can never finish a story. Cause I feel like no one appreciates or enjoys them.
Clearly I'm doing something wrong and no one is telling me what. So please, tell me. Tell me what I'm doing wrong. What are you interested in? What is something that you would enjoy reading? I want to reach out to you guys. I want to write stories, but the way I'm going apparently isn't working. I want to make you happy, I want you to enjoy reading what I make. And clearly I'm not doing that yet.